Happy Holidays!


Hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!

No there is no posting today, instead my gift to you is the 2001 Guiding Light holiday episode.  No there is no Marah and Tony interaction but that’s okay.   As The Bauers, the Coopers, and Marlers gather at the Bauer Cabin Ross tells a special holiday collection.  About the residents of Springfield.  And how they rediscover the wonder of Christmas.  There is something almost magical about this episode, at least in my opinion.

“Belief in Christmas magic has always been the key.”-Ross Marler (Jerry Dorn)

Okay maybe it is seeing Billy Kay (Shayne) dressed as an elf.  Or maybe it is Reva, stuck with Edmund and Olivia, agreeing to a truce for Christmas.  Or it could be Gus, still public enemy number one for most of Springfield, offering help those who seem to dislike him most: Frank, Buzz, Rick, and Danny.

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There is just something about Edmund, yes EDMUND, sitting behind that piano and singing “Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas” that makes me smile.  Especially when the citizens of Springfield join him.

I just love the whole thing.  And I hope you will too.

December 24, 201 (Part One)

December 24, 2001 (Part Two)

December 24, 2001 (Part Three)


Marony ~ Bauer BBQ 2003

I Believe in the Mystery

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I was going to upload just the Marony scenes from the Bauer BBQ from 2003 but then decided to upload the entire episodes from July4-9, 2003.  There is a lot going on in Springfield this week, all centered around the annual Bauer BBQ.  Marah and Tony have taken it upon themselves to throw a surprise wedding for Danny and Michelle but as Ed says “Something always happens at the Bauer BBQ” and this year is no exception.

I love the 2003 Bauer BBQ because it is one of the few final happy moments between Marah and Tony before their final break up.


July 4, 2003 (Part One) : Things are still tense between Josh and Reva. Ed thanks Marah and Tony for forcing him to having the BBQ. Ed hands over the reigns of Grill Master to Ross. Marah and Tony’s Justice of the Peace isn’t blending. Tony and Marah’s…

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Lindsey McKeon answers your questions


There is this nifty little site called that allows you to ask questions to a list of stars, who then answer them.  When I saw Lindsey McKeon was a part of that site I HAD to ask about Guiding Light and some of her best memories.

Q: I loved you on Guiding Light as Marah Lewis.  Your chemistry with Jordi Vilasuso was amazing.  What is your favorite memory on Guiding Light?

A: Thank You.  There were so many fun times, we were a big family and I was young and living it up in NYC.  I had great times with Kim, Jordi, and Matt Bomer but some of my favorite times were spent having slumber parties, sushi, and girl bonding all around silliness with Jessica Jimenez [Catalina].


It’s a fun site and hopefully it continues to grow as more stars are added.  Currently the only star from Guiding Light is Beth Chamberlain, but you can request stars to join.



Well I can announce that I am FINALLY hard at work for Story Three of the Marah and Tony Saga which will be titled “Lost and Found”.  I am thinking this one won’t be as long as the other two, but I have said that once before.  So while there is no definite date for when I will start posting, it IS in the works.   

And so far I LOVING the dynamics.  I usually hate amnesia stories but I think that going this route helps me build on the characters, especially Marah.   But her condition also is going to effect everyone around her.  So much happened on Guiding Light when Marah was in Paris, and while the show brought Shayne back they never addressed Marah and how she would react to the changes in her family.

I made Jonathan and Marah form a sibling bond because I thought they would have been an interesting sibling duo on the show.  But that bond is momentarily erased.  So the question remains, can they form another one?  And what about Collin?  Reva had a child with Marah’s ex Jeffery but nothing was ever said about how Marah would take that information.  Danny and Michelle are bound to be reminded of Michelle’s amnesia, and not in a good way.  And most of all, what about Tony?  He has to essentially make his wife fall in love with him again when it was his withholding of the truth that contributed to her condition.  All of this while caring for a newborn! 

So yes, a lot of different angles are going to be playing out and I am excited to see how it will turn out.


I have also FINALLY started uploading the last few months of Marah and Tony’s clips on YouTube.  Yes I kind of dragged my feet on this one since no one wants to see their couple break up,.  But these scenes are great in that you can see  Tony’s love for Marah even as he sleeps with Eden and as a result pushes Marah away.  You can feel that it tears him up not being with the woman he loves.  It is simply some excellent acting by Jordi Vilasusuo and Lindsey McKeon.

And all of that is what led to I Believe in the Mystery.  So I hope you enjoy the Marony clips while I work on “Lost and Found

Interesting Chaos

Well guys I was all set to begin the final set of Marah and Tony video clips and this happened…

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Total computer meltdown.

So then began the process of regrouping and gathering as much of what I lost as humanly possible.   But I think I have finally come to the point where I can breathe easy again.  This also means that it is time to begin uploading Marony!  So project Marony 2.0 is set to begin momentarily!!

I have also started plotting Story Three as well as a short Marony Holiday FanFic.  I certainly don’t want anyone to think I have forgotten about this site or Marah and Tony.  Marony has been with me since 2002 and I don’t see them leaving any time soon.

I have also started getting “crafty” and branched into banner making.  I am just first learning so they aren’t perfect but they are fun to showcase Guiding Light love (I even use a banner of Billy & Chloe from Y&R for my background for Twitter).  So, I have been toying with the idea of making a graphics section on this site for a while now.  Let me know what you think!


What Matters Most~ Chapter Nineteen

Marah waited patiently for Tony to get done making sure the house was locked up for the third time that night.  One would think they were living in Fort Knox instead of Springfield, he was such a worrywort.  But at least her conversation with Michelle the previous day had alleviated a lot of her worries.  Not all of them but a lot of them.  Like Michelle had so helpfully pointed out, Tony and her had already faced so much together why would he hide something when they were in a strong place?

She rubbed her hand on her belly and felt the answering flutter within her womb.  She was tempted to pick up the various baby books on the nightstand and continue her reading but refrained.  When her husband finally made his way upstairs she had some plans for him tonight and they did not include talking about the baby.  She had even purchased something new and slinky for the occasion.  No Marah Santos had seduction on the mind.

“Okay doors are locked and the alarm is set. I think we may need to upgrade…Holy shit.”  Tony stood in the middle of the room with his shirt half off and he couldn’t help b ut stare at the sight before his eyes.   His gorgeous wife lying provocatively on their bed dressed in some sexy, silky number he had never seen before.  He felt like one of those cartoons whose eyes bug out of their heads and their tongues roll out of their mouths.

Marah gestured along  the long line of her body to her leg. “You like?”

Like?  That was an understatement! “Baby I think all the blood in my body had rushed south.  You may have to give me a minute.”  He finished pulling off his shirt and after a quick detour to escort Toby outside their bedroom he moved towards their bed.  Towards Marah. “What did I do to deserve this?  Because I will do it again.”  And again, and again.

Marah just laughed and beckoned him closer with her finger. “You didn’t do anything.  I just wanted to do something special for my husband whom I love.”

Tony captured her lips in a kiss that stole her breath.  And soon they were tangled on the bed, Marah’s negligee thrown somewhere near the door.  Tony broke their kiss briefly to look down at his breathtaking wife.  With her hair all askew Marah resembled a siren and he was caught in her fatal song.  With the final vestige of brain function he paused to glance at her belly where their child lay growing.  “Is it safe?  I never asked Michelle.”

Marah reached up to pull him back down to her waiting lips. “It’s fine.  She’s fine.  Now make love to me.”

But before Tony could move he felt movement between them, like a light tapping from Marah’s stomach to his.  He quickly sat back on his heels his face one of shock as well as wonder.  “Is that her?”

On the bed Marah groaned.  Perfect timing little one.  Sensing that sexy time was over she leveraged herself up on her elbows, “By her you mean the baby than yes.  I have felt these flutterings for a few weeks but until now no one else could feel them.  I guess she just wanted to say hello to her daddy.”

Tony was in awe.  He hesitantly reached out a hand and placed it gently on her belly.   After a few moments he felt it again, that soft tap against the palm of his hand.  A million words ran through his head in that moment but all that he could mutter was a slightly breathless, “Wow.”

Marah looked into Tony’s stunned face and was surprised to see tears in his eyes.  Such a marshmallow underneath that tough exterior he showed to the world.  She reached up and brushed the hair off of his brow. “Babe?  What’s wrong?”

Tony suddenly became very serious, all touches of the man enthralled by the miracle they created washed away by the intense light in his eyes.  “You know much I love you right?  That I would give you the world if I could.”

She smiled serenely. “I don’t want the world Tony, I just want you.  You and our daughter.  And how many other children we have, as long as it isn’t a dozen.  That is what matters to me.  Our family.” She looked at the lingerie laying discarded on the floor and sighed. “I am guessing since sexy time is over, could you hand me a shirt?  Might as well be comfortable.”

Tony winced at the reminder that it had been him who had been pulled from the mood, but he dutifully handed over the cotton shirt he had been wearing earlier.  “I’m sorry Marah.  I would love to take up where we left off but with the baby kicking like that it just kind of hit me you know.  I can feel her.”

“You know the baby can’t feel you right?”

Tony did not look convinced by Marah’s statement. “I may know that, logically.  That’s what the book says anyway.  Doesn’t stop my mind from conjuring up some rather graphic images.  I don’t want to traumatize our daughter before she is even born!”

Marah just rolled her eyes before lying back on the pillows.  “Fine.  You win.” For now, she amended to herself. “You know it is going to be a long couple of months if you can’t get over this right?”

He just laughed before joining her under the covers. “Marah at least give me twenty-four hours to work through it in my head before you have me sitting in some shrink’s chair.”

“Hmm. Okay you got yourself a deal.” Marah curled up along side Tony resting her head on his bare chest.  “So you never said why you are going to be working from home.  Are you having problems at Infierno?  Not with Danny right?”

The fingers Tony had been lightly sifting through Marah’s hair stilled.  How easily he had forgotten about Eden and how her very presence threatened this very thing, this intimacy and love.  “We just figured with the baby coming I would be better off working closer to home.”

Marah lifted her head so that she could look at Tony. “Really?  We still have months to go.  Sure you aren’t going to get bored being away from the guys?”

“You kidding?  I  will probably get much work done away from the distractions.  Danny will probably make me work from home from now on.”  Marah laughed before reaching over and turning out the lights.

In the dark Tony let out a sigh that had nothing to do with contentment.  He felt…heavy.  Like a rock was sitting low in the pit of his stomach.  He hated lying to Marah but he had to protect her.  Who knew what Eden wanted, why she came back to Springfield in the first place.  Until he figured out Eden’s motives he had to keep her away from Marah.  He tightened his hold on Marah, he had too much to lose to risk it all to chance.